With everything that has happened in the last two weeks there is one amazing thing that I want to remember. I have been totally overwhelmed by the support of our friends ranging from offers to look after the kids if I had gone to Scotland or even just to take them for a few hours to offers to go to the airport to collect my husband at 6am (leaving home about 5am) and just the support and friendship that I have experienced. Someone saying to me the day before my husband returned that I was looking so much better than earlier in the week, passing comments, offers of shabbat meals and expressions of sympathy from the most unexpected places.
Words can not express the gratitude I have for this nor convey my true thanks. It's times like this that you discover what a true friend is and what a community is and I'm grateful to have them.
On a slightly different note I am almost as overwhelmed by the implications of a year of mourning for our lives. The things we can and can't do the things he can and can't do. Dealing with it as reality and decisions that have to be made it seems huge. It should be but at times I feel lost and swamped by it all. I suspect it's because I have to follow what he wants and I have no say in the choices. I've never been good at giving up my freedom to choose or my independence. This is what I need to learn now.
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