This was meant o be called something along the lines of "thinking outside the box" but then I thought of something else I had to say and the name sounded wrong.
So the first thing. Grief does not fit in a box. There is no set way for it to unfold and no two people will deal with it in the same way. There is no right or wrong and there is no easy formula or easy solutions. There is no time frame for it to finish.
I now have to deal with this, recognise that it is beyond my control and accept that what happens will happen. I stand by all that I have said earlier about wanting my husband to speak, cry, ..... but I now have to really make it a reality that I am waiting and moving on. I've written those words enough times but I have to change my thinking and make them a reality.
I said move on - I didn't say forget.
And now the second thing. I really really want to go away with my husband for a night without the kids (when I am not niddah). I know he will never go for it if I suggest it but I desperately feel the need to spend a significant amount of time with him and just him. We've both had a draining month or so and I just feel that I need to do this. As I said it's not the sort of thing he goes for so I'm not sure how to even begin to mention it but I would really appreciate it if it could happen.
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