I feel like we are getting to the end of a long race. It's been a long year and our lives have changed over the past 12 months. But even when we get to the end it's not even over. It's changed the course of our lives and changed us. I see the changes in my husband and how he relates to things and us us differently.
It's been a long year. I don't know that time really heals anything or if it's just that you start to think about things differently.
Monday, July 30, 2012
Sunday, July 29, 2012
It's a girl
4 weeks ago today I give birth to a little girl. She was 4.1kg when she was born and came after a short painful labour. A girl, I wasn't sure how I felt about it at the time (wasn't sure what I felt about anything at that moment to be honest) and now I've had time to think over what it means.
I have a daughter. It seems to me that there are so many more questions and decisions to be made with a girl. The responsibility feels so much heavier than with the boys. Maybe it's because I feel that I will have to make more decisions about my life in order to be the sort of role model I feel I should be for a daughter. Raising a religious boy seems much more clear cut but the rules and roles keep changing for women and girls. This is a good thing, I wouldn't want to be stuck in a time where we had pre-proscribed roles and no flexibility, that the world is open and we can make the right choices for ourselves is a good thing. With choice comes responsibility, we have to take responsibility for what we do in a way that we never had to in the past.
My daughter is growing up in a different world than I grew up in, she will have more choices to make in areas that maybe weren't open to me. I hope I can help her make the right choices and more than that I hope I can be the mother she needs me to be.
I have a daughter. It seems to me that there are so many more questions and decisions to be made with a girl. The responsibility feels so much heavier than with the boys. Maybe it's because I feel that I will have to make more decisions about my life in order to be the sort of role model I feel I should be for a daughter. Raising a religious boy seems much more clear cut but the rules and roles keep changing for women and girls. This is a good thing, I wouldn't want to be stuck in a time where we had pre-proscribed roles and no flexibility, that the world is open and we can make the right choices for ourselves is a good thing. With choice comes responsibility, we have to take responsibility for what we do in a way that we never had to in the past.
My daughter is growing up in a different world than I grew up in, she will have more choices to make in areas that maybe weren't open to me. I hope I can help her make the right choices and more than that I hope I can be the mother she needs me to be.
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