On my second month of icka.... (can't remember how to spell it but it's the one that makes you ovulate more). I have been told that this increases the chance of having twins and this does give me something to think about. I want more kids but the thought of having twins is very scary and adds another element of surprise (or risk depending on how I feel) to the whole thing.
This is how it goes; I take estrofem at the beginning of my period, then I take the other one that I can't spell, then I go to the mikva and then after hopefully quite a bit of sex I wait. And the waiting seems to go on forever. Did I ovulate? Did we have sex at the right time? will I get pregnant this month? If I do, when will the baby be due? This gives me a good two weeks of lowish level stress before those critical days when my period is due. Will it happen this month? what possible early pregnancy symptoms might I have? Am I feeling pre-menstrual? Was that an early blood stain I saw? If it was, can I just ignore it and then maybe it won't happen? Was it enough blood to make me niddah? Am I just putting off the reality of the situation and my religious obligations if I ignore it?
and then there is the big one.......It was only a tiny bit of colour so maybe it was just spotting............Please?
It wasn't and only has been once but I long for it again. The other thing that is always at the back of my mind though if I get as far as pregnancy - how many will it be??????
Wish me luck for this month
