Bombs and buses

I was scrolling through the BBC website photos of the bombing in Jerusalem today and the caption on one of the photos struck me as very strange. "The explosion has shocked a city which last experienced a bus bombing in 2004."

The wording seemed to imply that it was strange that we haven't had a bus bombing for 7 years and we were shocked and caught unaware. That we should somehow expect to have them and not be so surprised when yet another bus blows up.
That's not to say that the last 7 years have been calm and peaceful, we have rockets fired at us, families killed in their sleep, missiles fired at us, road diggers ramming in to buses and cars and, did I mention missiles fired at us.

The last few days have seen an upsurge in attacks from Gaza in to Israel with missiles now reaching as far as Beer Sheva.

I don't want another intifada, I don't want to be scared to drive in my car or to go in to a shopping center or ride on a bus. I don't want to have to dive for my phone every day to make sure everyone I know is ok. I want a normal life

link to the photos: http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-middle-east-12837951

Happy Purim

Just had a really nice Purim. No great revelations just a nice fun day with the family and friends. The kids dressed up,  I dressed up, my husband didn't - he never does unless the kids force him to and they failed to this year.

None the less we all had fun!

Babies part 2

I'm still not pregnant. I'm having scans this week to find out if I'm ovulating following this months round of drugs. From the 2 scans  I have had so far this month there seems to be some progress but nothing yet. Here's hoping and praying fro something this month.

This isn't quite the normal selfish "oh no I'm still not pregnant " rant. I wanted to remember what happened at the Mikva this month. I'm not a great one for spontaneous prayer but there I was standing in the room at the mikva thinking and there it was. I was thinking about the tragedy in Itamar (the murder of 5 members of the Fogel family) and mostly about the kids. The only name I could remember at the time was Hadasa - the 3 month old baby. It seemed unfair to me that these souls had only been in the world for a short time and did not have the chance to reach their full potential ( or maybe they did, I don't know). I simply asked Hashem to send the souls back. Many women went to the mikva this week, many of us are longing for the chance to bring a soul in to the world, to allow it to grow and develop. Five souls were suddenly taken from the world this week. Please Hashem, find five women who are worthy enough to give these souls the second chance the need to develop their full potential to serve you.
Thank you

babies part 1

Well before anything else I must confess that I'm still not quite sure how to deal with the murder in Itamar on shabbat. The pictures were shocking, the event was shocking and I just don't get how you can kill a baby. When Avraham sends away Yishmael and Hagar they get stranded in the desert with no water. Hashem send s an angel to bring them to water or show them water ( I forget the details but thats the gist of it). The question is asked why did hashem save Yishmael when he knew what Yishmael and his descendants were going to do to the Jewish people. The answer is as follows; at that stage in his life Yishmael had not done wrong and nor had his descendants, they still had time to change. That hashem knew what choices they were going to make did not mean they had to make them. Hashem did not allow an innocent person to die DESPITE his divine knowledge that in the future this person would cause harm.
Whatever your views on the situation in Israel, whether you support the Israelis, the Palestinians or both to some degree can we at least agree on one thing: a three month old baby has done no wrong, the other children had done no wrong.
There is no justification in killing children. A society can not be founded on the murders of others. Death occurs when people are trying to fight for what they believe in. In a war soldiers die. To walk in to someones house whilst they sleep and stab them in their beds is not a war, it is not a way to fight for what you believe is right.

To go out and celebrate after killing people is not humane or moral or just.

I would like to live in peace and not have to send my children to learn hoe to shot guns and turn them in to soldiers but I don't know how to make peace with people who celebrate after they murder children sleeping in their beds