This is going to sound strange but I feel something is missing in my relationship with Aa. I love him and I know that he loves me, there is a good physical relationship but I still feel that something is missing. I want to look after him and keep him safe and all that other pathetic slushy stuff. I think I feel that he doesn't need me for anything emotional. He will continue to function as an isolated unit too scared to expose his feelings and cutting short any development of a relationship.
This sounds crazy, we have been together for over 12 years and married for 9 but most of the time I don't know what he's feeling. He shuts me out and sometimes it hurts, sometimes it's no big deal and I'm fine with it but there are times when I worry about him and wonder how I can be married to someone so secretive.
I just want him once in a while to let me in, to trust me with what he won't show anyone else, to let us deal with things together, to remember that he is not alone.
But despite all that I still love him and can't imagine my life without him.
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