What an amazing statement of faith that is. It overwhelms me everytime I hear people say it. I don't know how much comfort it provides but when people say it with true meaning, just wow. I remeber seeing it on the posters when Bertha died, I remember hearing Benjy say it on the phone when Irving died, I've heard it too often in the past week. It just blows me away.
I spent last night at the shiva for Abby's mum being "on duty". Have we reached this stage in out lives where this is what we do? Monday night I was cooking for a new baby and for a shiva. I was thinking about my mum when I was at Abby's last night. I remember her organising food for people and both my parents going to pay shiva calls. This was the first time I've had to do it for a friend.
The more I see people doing to help Abby the worse I feel about not going over when Aaron was sitting shiva. The help and support Isee people providing. When I saw how Dov was there to help Abby, when a desicion had to be made and she just wanted to check with him first. It brings back all the feelings of desertion that I had when I didn't go to Scotland.
I was speaking to Ruth earlier and she wasn't sure if she would be going to the UK with James for his Dad's funeral. I told her to go. I told her about the pain of being on the other side of the world when you want to be with your husband, I told her about how her feeling count and if she want's to be with the family to say good bye she should. I told her it's one of the hardest desicions and everyone will tell her to do something else. I told her that she will probably feel it was wrong what ever she does.
I told her I was here if she needed me.
We have the luxury of being able to live even if it means living with choices that are hard to make.
We live.
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