So, nearly every Thursday my husband volunteers with the local police. I think this is great, I love it that he can be so committed and motivated to do something to help others, that like any other project he gets involved in he gives it his all but I have one HUGE problem with it.
I worry all night until he gets home. I worry that something will happen to him whilst he is on duty but that is nothing compared to how much he scares me by doing the shifts he does. He likes to go out all night with the traffic police, which is a valuable thing to do. Among the things he does he catches drunk drivers which I fully support. The shift he likes to do can end anywhere between 3 and 6 in the morning at which point he drives home and collapses in to bed.
The bit that scares me is the drive home. He claims that he is quite capable of driving and there is nothing wrong with he reflexes and anyway, the roads are pretty empty at that time of day. I don't believe him. About the roads being quite empty I do believe but that he is safe to drive there is no way I can believe that. By the time he comes home he has been up and active for about 24 hours. No one has perfect reflexes when they have been up that long and even if his reflexes are at just slightly below what they should be what about the other guy on the road, the one who Aa needs to swerve out the way so that he won't hit an oncoming truck? And your reflexes and response time only need to be slightly off to have a huge and potentially tragic accident.
So this is my weekly dilemma; on the one hand I think it's great that he chooses to go out and do his bit for society instead of just sitting around talking about it - yes, I'm proud of him. On the other hand, I go through this weekly worry that something will happen to him, that I might lose him because of this dedication he has, because he won't turn round at2 or 3 in the morning and say "I have to go now, I've been awake too long to function effectively" (or words to that effect).
I will just wait and hope that this week everything will be ok.
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