So I know I'm not pregnant this month. At least, I think I do. I don't know how much of it is trying to prepare myself for the worst and how much is be actually knowing my body, if I'm honest it's quite alot of the later.
I hate this wait. This time every month when I don't know. I hope against hope that this will be the month it happens, I search my life for possible early signs of pregnancy and then I get my period and all the hope and all all the strength that I have been building up for the last two weeks comes crashing down and I just want to cry.
This month has the added thrill of being my 3rd month on icaklomin so next month we get to try something different. Everything I have read online ( and yes I know that it's not the only or always the best source of info) is pointing at a series of injections, blood tests and scans lasting 8 - 14 days. I'm a bit scared.
I'm going to see my doctor on Sunday and he will, as ever explain things to me and give me some of the hope I need to get through the next round of whatever he has planned for me.
I just hope it works fast
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